Written by @dorothy.x.yang
Hi guys, hope you are all doing well.
It is until recently that I discovered my double personalities. Usually, I’m the kind of person that always has full of schedules, but when it all comes at once, it will make feel overwhelmed, and then I’d just rather be alone and enjoy a little peace.
This is to say, on one hand, I can be extrovert, sociable and energetic, but on the other hand, I can be like insecure, lack of confidence, and even antisocial. I was stuck in the “antisocial me” period for the last 2 weeks where I have 0 motivation to do anything. What’s worse, the “insecure me” makes me lose all my energy, confidence and motivation, it makes me believe that I’d better stay on my comfort zone without doing anything.
Speaking of that, it is also one of the reasons why I stopped the project #BehindTheScenes that I planned for last year. I wanted to show the side of bloggers behind those social media, so I conducted quite a few interviews with different bloggers while I travelled. At the beginning, I was full of ambition and motivation, but at some point I just kept asking myself: what am I doing? Why am I doing this? How should I do it? What for?
With those self-doubts I just simply couldn’t move forward, plus I was overwhelmed by all the university stuff, I had to sadly stop the project. From then on, I stopped posting photos on my Instagram or so, because I think I need some time to figure out myself, figure out my purpose of doing my blog and all the social media stuff. So whenever I travel, I may post numerous stories but 0 blog or instagram post. I know my Co-Founder Lea always wanted to cheer me up, but in that period, there’s no one can help me but myself.
Long story short, now I finally get back to the right track, get the best state of mind and get down to the business. I’m going to carry on the #BehindTheScenes project, and in fact, I’m going to make it bigger and better this time. I really want to share some more experience from me and people I know so that we won’t merely focus on the bright side of bloggers on social media.
So recently there’s a lot of work I’m involved for my upcoming project, including planning and organizing offline activities in Munich, London and Beijing. I’m so busy and motivated at the same time, and I never felt so happier before. I’m sure now I found my true passion at the moment, since I really enjoy doing stuff on social media. And that’s why I’m sure this time I will carry on and not easily quit like before.
I really appreciate all the people who have cared about me and supported me at my worst time. Please stay tuned and see what’ll happen next:)